This is another long and rambling post…
Due to a few different factors, I have been battling a pretty severe case of depression since the end of November. This is the worst it has been in quite a few years and I have been a bit worried. Not only can I hardly keep it together to get through the entire day without needing to walk out of the room and count to ten before I start crying, I also am having a hard time completing my workouts without wanting to sit down on the curb and just sob. I always manage to keep going, but just barely.
Last night, I was scheduled to run the Fairfax Four Miler for the third year in a row. I was seriously not looking forward to it. Right up until we started, I was extremely tempted to just walk back to my car and go home.
I was surrounded by a huge group from my running group but I think I said about ten words before the start. I was so miserable.
After a brief wait, we were off! Since I knew the course, I knew it had the potential to be fast but that there were some hills. Mile 1 was 8:43 and mile 2 came in at 8:11! I couldn’t believe it! The hills at mile 3 were tough but I still finished with an overall (unofficial) time of 8:56 average! That was a huge course PR for me! Even going by the official times, it was still a 1:08 PR.
I am pretty darn proud of this race. Not only did I do it completely alone – I didn’t even have music – but I feel like I raced my depression and won! At least for now.
I don’t know what 2016 will bring but I am already making a concerted effort to start things on the right foot. I intend to foster existing friendships and forge new ones, on and off the road. I want to give as much as I receive and find a real place in my community.
To that end, I started the year off with 3 recovery miles with a friend who is coming back from a very difficult year. Nothing like some good conversation and Starbucks to set you off to a good start! I think I’m ready for 2016 now.
By the way, the tutu was a huge hit (which is funny because the last time I wore it, I just got weird looks) – this is the one I have http://www.amazon.com/Light-Tutus-Electric-Styles-Blue/dp/B00G3UGTT2/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1451691906&sr=8-1&keywords=glow+tutu